I strive to be supportive and celebrate their agency and their choice.* I try to put a positive spin on it -- just like I try to do with everything. I am glad if they are happy and sad if they are not. I wish them well and our friendship takes no hits.
Did I make the right choice? I thought. Will I ever be as happy as they appear, or as sexually fulfilled as that looks like from my vantage? Will someone ever think I am attractive and want to have me like I want to them?
Here is what my answer is.today. Unequivocably, no.
The trillion dollar question is, will Hugo (that is what I named him) and all he represents get me where I want to be? For me, with all that I know and hope to know, the answer is no.
I am going to take Heavenly Father at his word. I will do what it takes in this life to have what He promised me I can have. With that goal in mind, I would be a fool to not follow his advice, walk his path, obey his commandments.
Here is the treasure map. Now, ignore it and go another direction.