Today I feel much the same way as I did yesterday when I first saw the report. The only difference is that I am breathing now.
I am sad for our children. I don’t know how I am going to explain this to my adult kids if the case should present itself. I don’t know how to speak of this to fellow members, or non-members, or in-active members – or even ex-members who have been hurt by LDS policies/procedures in the past. I have written this religious/gay Mormon blog under a pseudonym for years, and this topic is so hot that I am thinking about taking the week of work to research and inform.
In trying to make sense of this: I understand that the policy on those who are vocal against the church has always been to treat their children with care – assuming that those children are interested in being part of the church. I didn’t think they were required to move out of the home -- as the adult children of gay married parents are being asked to do now. I haven’t wrapped my head around this yet.
I have read that those children of 8 years of age would have to get permission from their parents to be baptized. Yes, that could be painful. But is it any more painful than requiring that adult children of same-sex parents only be baptized if they have moved out of their home and renounced their parenting?
In trying to step back and be objective -- I generally feel that everything happens for a reason. I also believe that there are reasons for things that we can’t see, or understand or even imagine.
Maybe -- possibly -- the reason for this is something like this: Mormons will have to take a stand.
- Luke-warm will no longer cut it.
- Will I stay true to what I know?
- If I don’t know what I have pretended to know, am I going to do what it takes to have a knowledge?
- Will I choose to forgo what I know for what I think I know?
- Can I voice an opinion to something I believe as an attempt to instigate change and maintain my belief in the Gospel/church/divinity of Jesus Christ? Can I do this without creating personal or public derision that is at least as bad as what I oppose at the moment?
- Do I believe that the prophet speaks for the Lord?
- Will I ask for personal revelation?
- Will I still treat all people with respect, and love them for who they are regardless?
Another friend I try to read before I post said this:
I believe this with all my heart.